I will start writing again in the new year. Right now, I would just like to say “have a good one” regarding New Years eve, to everyone who reads this. I didn’t meet my goals this year in terms of financial accomplishments, weight loss accomplishments, work achievements, knitting, sewing projects are not all complete. I did get a stack of stuff done though. I undertook several course of education. Spent time with my kids, both here and in Florida, caught up with my husband and enjoyed him being home much more than usual in the fourth quarter. I dealt with fears that have kept me from enjoying myself or being enjoyable to others. I made some money, broke new ground, lost fifteen pounds, worked in the garden, completed enough sewing and knitting projects to give in abundance to both my granddaughter and great niece. Could I have done better? Always. I had fun. I moved mountains in emotional progress and I’m looking forward to the new year with a sense of healthy anticipation. I know my kids are facing challenges. I trust they will be able to dig deep within and clear their hurdles and get closer to their goals. I wish you and yours the same well being and here’s to a good 2012. It may not be as plentiful as you would like. I wish you “enough”.
So so sad to leave Florida this morning…truth be told, it really has nothing to do with Florida, its because I feel so sad to leave my kids, their partners and my grand baby behind.
Yesterday was full of dark clouds. I’ve been working through some management instruction discs getting ready for a course I’m going to be attending in Austin in August. It’s high energy, full immersion, reach for the sky and accept nothing less than the stars. So much so, I was exhausted just watching the CD’s ….I don’t know that I am cut out for all of that stuff. I have done the eighty hour work weeks and given my all to prove myself to the big C as in Corporate…they eat you up and spit you out….. Just as I was approaching burnout, I came to the conclusion that there was no real balance and by working eighty something hours. In fact I was actually doing two people’s jobs in real terms. Add to that, at the time, my husband was at sea on deployment so there were two children (teenagers) to keep in check, force, cajole, encourage and bribe to help with housework, laundry and yard work all while trying to keep up with their interests, school work, love lives, well being, physical, mental and of course nutritional, oh and again, laundry! I’ve written degree programs, had my own business several times, Cooked for royalty and heads of state, and raised two kids. I know what is important to me. Being important in my kids lives, is far more important than being a millionaire. I need to organise my mind and feel confident in the direction that I am going. I would like more time with the people that are important to me…now I need to find a